With my head held down in shame....

I have to confess that I am feeling like the biggest loser ever!!! I hope I can say this here and still have my JP friends after.

OK, here goes... big confession.... getting up courage to say it 😲 trying to make light of something that has me in tears and feeling like crawling in a hole right now.

I smoke occassionally (not talking about ciggs, but those too 😊 ) Just so happens 2 weeks ago when Marc and I went camping at his friend's house party... I smoked a little weed, as it was being passed around the camp fire, had a few drinks and figured why not? Well, not I know why not.... because now I don't have my new job because of it 🙁

I wasn't told there would be a drug test until tuesday and I had to go on weds.... I did do some stuff that was supposed to "cleanse" my system but it didn't work... had I thought a little more responsible that night, I would have just declined. I am crying, I feel like a big effing LOSER!!! When I went to pick up the letter for the day care, she told me I had to call a number to find out the results and that's that, now I'm back to square 1 again!

I'm definately not looking for sympathy as I don't deserve it, but I just needed to get it off my chest to some who I hope will forgive me for it and still be my friends 😊 ??

I just wanted to add, so that maybe I'm a little less of a loser in your eyes. I don't do or care for any other drug at all, well maybe a drink sometimes if that counts, but I never thought an occasional smoke was such a bad thing until now that it's caused me a BIG problem

O that isn't good!!I don't touch drugs, never have and never will do!

Well if it was being passed around then most people do have some. Hopefully you won't try it again, won't they let you have the job at all?? I don't think jobs should be allowed to bring your social life into it.

Sorry to hear about this, but they should of told you about the test

chin up hunni, dont worry. we all make mistakes x 😘

just so you don't feel so bad girl i'll fess up for you aswell

when DBF and I had night out we took some Cocaine, well we think thats what it was, it was some kind of drug he found in hotel room, it just come empty that day (he says he found it sometimes i wonder), but never again will either of us do that again it made DBF ill, and my parents who i have nothing to do with have that rubbish, but all i can say is stuff like that is obviously there for people to try so you still have me as your friend 🙂 😀

don't get the impression from me i don't mind drugs, i despise drugs hate hate them!

🙁 thats pants hun sorry you lost your job over it,

You don't have to ask for forgiveness I'm sure a few as I have tried it when it s been passed about 😘

and for the sympathy thing i don't give it to anyone involved in drugs, and i wouldnt expect it either, don't worry hun everything will be fine 🙂

and sorry about your job :(:(

most of us have done at some point hunnie 😘

thank you guys... It just really sucks, and the fact that I could have prevented this from happening by just making a different choice that night makes me feel like I have REALLy Losered UP on this one.

I also despise ALL other drugs... maybe that makes me kind of like a hypocrite but it's just the way I feel.

thank you again to you who will still be my friends, and still definately not looking for sympathy on this thread, just kinda needed to confess it and get it off my chest... I AM an very open book, if ya'll haven't noticed yet 😉

AWW HUN IM SORRY ABOUT THE JOB... 😘

we all made mistakes hun, i mean i drink quite alot and i kno its bad....we not all perfect 😘

keep ya chin up hun,give us a smile!

chill out hunnie, it'll all be fine, we are here for ya!

😜 thank you!

I just have to suck it up and get out there and find another good job and I definately will be leaving the other out of my life for that reason! Next choice I'm given I'll stop and think bout it then make the right choice 😀 (sighing) I am an adult...

One other thing... it has never ever ever been around Aaralyn! 😠 nore done when I was pregnant or breast feeding her 😛 ever!!

look even babies do it

i used to smoke i quit when i was ten and glad i did..

Hanny said:
just so you don't feel so bad girl i'll fess up for you aswell

when DBF and I had night out we took some Cocaine, well we think thats what it was, it was some kind of drug he found in hotel room, it just come empty that day (he says he found it sometimes i wonder), but never again will either of us do that again it made DBF ill, and my parents who i have nothing to do with have that rubbish, but all i can say is stuff like that is obviously there for people to try so you still have me as your friend 🙂 😀

don't get the impression from me i don't mind drugs, i despise drugs hate hate them!

I had an ex boyfriend who went from snorting it to becoming a crack head, then heroine... 3 years with him was enough to make me know I never want to be around that crap ever again (I was not into it though)

hapydazy said:

Hanny said:
just so you don't feel so bad girl i'll fess up for you aswell

when DBF and I had night out we took some Cocaine, well we think thats what it was, it was some kind of drug he found in hotel room, it just come empty that day (he says he found it sometimes i wonder), but never again will either of us do that again it made DBF ill, and my parents who i have nothing to do with have that rubbish, but all i can say is stuff like that is obviously there for people to try so you still have me as your friend 🙂 😀

don't get the impression from me i don't mind drugs, i despise drugs hate hate them!

I had an ex boyfriend who went from snorting it to becoming a crack head, then heroine... 3 years with him was enough to make me know I never want to be around that crap ever again (I was not into it though)

my mum and dad do heroin, i'm glad i have nothing to do with them, we snorted it but it made DBF so ill never never again!

Hanny said:
look even babies do it



i used to smoke i quit when i was ten and glad i did..

OMG!! that is horrible, but you did it, I just laughed really hard... PML!!! ROFLMAO PM

All you can do is to learn from this situation and hopefully it won't happen again, once burnt twice shy and all that. I once had to fire someone I worked with because he smoked the funny stuff, despite warnings, in the end I had to let him go, was'nt pleasant from my side of things as he was actually a good worker and friend, but bend the rules and your out...tough but fair. I don't think any less of you, and theres nothing to be said as you are beating yourself up enough already over it all. Just be more cautious in the future, company drug testing can happen any time, any place, only takes the slightest sniff of something dodgy these days.

Aww...thats crap hun. And so annoying that something that is only occasional could be done with such bad timing. As others have said most of us will have had that or something else in our time, no-one here will think any less of you for such a minor indescretion. iIn the scheme of things it doesnt mean anything. Only bad that it lost you your job.

You are fabulous and will find another one even better before you know it! 😘

Thanks Rich... I kinda feel like I just got a little well-deserved 😛 from you 😊

That must have been a bad position for you to be in too from the other perspective. Most major companies in the US do drug testing and knowing that and still doing what I did is what really has me 😠 ed off at myself...

Ok, nuff said, just gonna move on and learn from it 🙂

i found the pic on the net :O