Having Panic Attacks Nowadays.

Hey everyone. I have shared my story with you people. Life is really like a roller coaster. Ups and downs are part of it. But you enjoy the ups and in downs, you are out of your mind. Same is the case with me nowadays. I am on the road to conceiving and TTC is really a hard journey. It gives you tension and stress and makes you feel broken when there is no success. Waiting for BFP is never ending for me, it is like a dream to me. I am extremely stressed these days because of all this happening in my life. TTC and wait, both are killing me. I am having panic attacks these days and I am so heartbroken. I don't want to be infertile, I really don't. I really want us to conceive naturally. I want to enjoy the feeling of being pregnant. People who can conceive naturally and without any complications are the blessed ones. I really want to be one of the lucky ones. I am devastated now. I need you, people, to send me wishes. Need wishes badly. Hope to receive positive vibes. Thank you in advance.

Hello hun! I'm so sorry you’re feeling this way. I recognized myself in your words. I know how you feel and I am truly sorry for both of us. Infertility is really hard to go through. My husband is very supportive. But he will never understand how exactly I feel. I'm sick of doctors, treatments, medications and empty hopes. I fall into depression a long time ago. Sometimes I feel like I will never get out of it. I'm crying so often, my eyes are swollen all the time. I forgot the last time I was laughing and was feeling really happy. People around me don't understand. We've been trying to conceive for 8 years and all this time I've been hearing ignorant advices from people. They say I should distract myself or wait until it will happen somehow. I understand this is not their fault. But I'm so angry sometimes because they say nonsenses. They just don't understand and they never will. We are going through a battle and we are all by ourselves in it. I know exactly what you're talking about. Long ttc, my disease and infertility changed me completely. Now I'm a different person then I was before. To be honest I don't like a person I became. I used to be very positive, funny. I loved life and I was always trying to find good side in everything. Now I am sad, upset, depressed, stressed and disappointed. I can't even say I live my life. I exist and wait for miracle to come into my life. I think "when I will have a child everything will change" or "I will be happy when I become mother”. Some people tell "find a distraction" or "enjoy every minute, everything is going like it's supposed to be". I don't think it works this way. At least for me it has never worked. I should say now I feel a little bit better. The reason of it is that we found option which may help us to become parents. The idea of using donor eggs came to our minds not so long ago. I feel much better knowing that there is a chance for us to have a baby. Honey I hope you will find the way out from this vicious cycle and become a happy mother!

LisaAdams good to know that you have shared your experience with us. I agree with you that TTC is really a hard journey. If we more elaborate this, then “wait” is the best word. Doing wait is the hardest thing in the world. You have to keep patience and that is really difficult one. As you are saying that you have gotten panic attacks then I can admit. Because I am with you on this journey. Normal pregnancy is everyone desire to have. But I think when you can’t then you should go through artificial methods treatments. Need is just to change your mindset. Everything will be ok then.

dear Lisa, i can understand the desperateness in you for getting pregnant.That is all genuine in a mother or woman i must say.These things are necessary for completing a family.But if there is some natural issue than one must look for remedies.Like i did and now I am having a child through surrogacy.It was hard to accept but the final result made me happy so nothing else matters.The age is never going to stop.So you must take a quick action.Best of luck

Hey Lisa! I hope you are doing good now. Still I m so sorry for what you have been through. You are right, Life is like a roller coaster but in roller coaster ride you have two options too. You can scream and enjoy the ride or cry and never ride on it again. I know it's a very difficult journey, and so much painful too. But tell me anything that feels better then holding your own baby in your hands? Just don't give up hon! Stay Strong and Positive. You have so many options to conceive like IVF, IUI, And surrogacy. All these treatments are very successful. Even I myself had babies through Surrogacy. and I m not ashamed of it. The surrogate mother carried the baby for me and i m glad that i made this decision. You should also go for IVF or surrogacy. It will help you become a mother too. These treatments are so common now. Infertility is a hard thing to cope with but it's not the end of your life. Much Love!

This is so nice of you all to reply and support me. I am so much thankful to all of you for your kind words.
I thought to update you all on my situation. My DH and I went to the doctor. He did the laparoscopy. He told us that we should go some other way. We should not waste our time waiting for TTC naturally.
I am so shattered to know this. I wanted us to conceive naturally. My DH and I have been in a shock. It left us heart-broken.
But now, we have decided to keep trying for some more time. We really want us to conceive naturally. I really wanna have a baby and wish to have one soon. I have this faith in me which is not letting me go for some other way. We will just wait for more time.
I hope you people can understand what I am saying.
Thank you so much for listing to me.

Hey Lisa! Don't be so hard on yourself dear. You'll get there. If you are have not been able to conceive after months of ttc, maybe see a doc. There is a solution to every problem dear. You just have to find it. Stay strong. Stay positive.

Hey lovely, please don't stress your self too much.The panic attacks are not a good sign and it can become dangerous too. I would advise you to see a therapist and release some stress. This could be a reason for not TTC. Stress is a major factor that hinders the process of conceiving. You might not be infertile and the problem could be in your husband too. Ask him to get his full check up and all reports done. In addition, I would recommend you to go for IVF or surrogacy as your main goal is to have a baby. IVF can even allow you to carry the baby. Good luck and please stay calm.

Hey there. How are you doing? I hope you are doing great. I am really sorry to hear about your issues. I know how hard it exactly is. Trust me I have been through it. It is very agonizing. However, you seem to be a strong woman. Be strong and be positive. I know success can sometimes come a little late. Just don't give up. Don't stress or blame yourself. Even if it doesn't work you have other options like surrogacy and IVF. DO your research about them. They are a blessing of science. I hope it works out for you. Good luck. Take care.

Hey Girl! Virtual hugs. Each person on such forum is suffering the same as you are. Each one has the same struggle. And this is actually tough. We often come over here because this is the place where we are being heard and cared. I would suggest to never losing your hope. There are so many people who share their success stories with assisted reproductive technologies. Look for one of those. Never call off your struggle! You are a strong girl. Good luck.