My PND

Hello. My name is Jo. I have postnatal depression. This is like those moments at AA. I haven't been. Went to Overeaters Annonymous once many moons ago for an eating disorder. It was poop. Didn't help with a bizarre name that didn't really make sense. The group. Not mine. So I have two daughters. One is nearly three and the other is nearly seven months. I need to make very clear that I do love them both. And I would never hurt them. But I wish they would go away and leave me alone. I hate being a mother. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I don't understand people that say they love every minute of it. I don't. I have moments that I enjoy. But I am hating it. Only since my second was born. With my eldest I had a craziness and then it lightened and went away. This time it is so so much worse. Its dark and its overwhelming and its suffocating me.