It's a sad day for us!

Hi,
I started a new topic last week, called 'spotting in pregnancy.' Thanks to everyone who tried to reassure me. However, the news was not good and I am devastated to say that my pregnancy will not continue. Pregnancy hormone is around 200 when it should be 2000 so something has not quite happened right. It's been such a difficult few days, all the prodding and poking, needles and drips, it's been horrible and at the end of it all I have nothing. So I won't have a baby, my pregnancy will end sometime next week, naturally and I was also told that I have a 7cm cyst on my left ovary! I knew nothing about this previous to getting pregnant but after all the tests and scans they have found something which needs to be fixed. I guess in someway this baby has helped find something dangerous. It must be fate or something, I duno, I guess it's better for this sadness to come at such an early stage in pregnancy than a lot further down the line.
So what happens next? Well, I have to go for even more blood tests on Monday to try and find out what's going to happen with the cyst. At the moment I am in a different world, having to deal with losing our baby (although I am still officially pregnant) and worrying about what the near future will bring. I am so sad, I feel jealous when I look at pregnant women, which I know is so wrong and I guess I'm in denial because things haven't started to happen yet. Such a horrible time right now but we just have to help each other through (me and my partner). I'm sorry for waffling on but I feel like this is my only place for release, as I am trying to stay strong for my partner and son but I still need to release my feelings. If anybody out there has pregnancy success stories after miscarriage please get in touch. I need something positive to look towards and could do with an understanding ear/ chat from you ladies out there.
Thanks for reading.Becs

Hi Becs,

I know where you're coming from. I had 2 miscarriages before I had Ethan. Like you, my HCG hormones weren't high enough to carry the pregnancy and I was told that although I was officially pregnant, I would eventually lose the babies. It was a physically and mentally painful process.

I was devastated, but knew I wanted to keep trying and 5 months after my second miscarriage I was pregnant with Ethan.

There is light at the end of the tunnel, and time does help to heal the scars but I will still always remember my 2 angel babies.

Sending you lots of love and ((((((big hugs))))))

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ahh sorry to hear than hun and its understandable that u feel well jelous towards pregnant women i would too
now that all has been diagnosed thoguh u can get fixed and try again
thinking of u and your partner at this horrible time in your life
rip angel baby
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Becs, so so sorry things didn't turn out for you hunny.

Sending all my love to you and your family at this sad time. Although I can't know what you are going through I can see where you are coming from when you say you are jealous of other pregnant women. Don't bottle up your feelings make sure you get some counseling and support too.

My mum has had two miscarriages and a molar pregnancy and still had three healthy babies, please don't look at this as the end. Good luck with the treatment of your cyst and all the best for your family and future family

hi, thank you for your kind comments. It is a difficult time but me and my partner are being strong for each other. It seems like that horrible day is coming, I have the signs today so I think it will start tomorrow
I have the blood tests tomorrow and will find out what will happen with the cyst, as it is so large I think I will have to have it removed. It seems this pregnancy was a blessing in disguise in a way, because without it I would never have found out about the cyst and who knows what would have happened?
Thanks again, keep you posted.
Love Becs x

really sorry to hear your news, its understandable to feel envious of pregnant women, i was like that when i was trying for a long time. take good care of yourself and love to your family at this horrible time. x

hiya Becs,
Sorry to hear your bad news. You seem to be really philosophical about it, which I guess is the right approach...

Sendin ya [[[[((((BIG HUGS))))]]]]

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hey, Gazelle - sorry to hear you had such a difficult time
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sorry to hear your news hun.