It's so strange...

...concidering I am really quite tired at the moment I look forward to the quiet time I do get which is rare. Yet tonight with the kids staying at my nan and grandad's I am missing them SOOO much. I've been in a miserable lethargic state this whole bank holiday and just wanting to shut myself away in bed-not that I could of course. But after I left them this afternoon about 4.30 I have felt even more sad and miserable; and if they were home now they'd be in bed anyway yet I'm still missing them. But I know tomorrow when they are back home they'll be driving me round the bend again so why can't I just switch off and enjoy this time?
I think I'm going through abit of a protective 'they're my kids' stage. I also feel abit guilty that I'm not giving them enough of 'me', being abit tired and moody and stuff. I don't feel like I can keep on top of everything and give them 100% aswell. Uh!! I just feel crap at the moment and I hate being like this

Hun I think it's just been called a mum

You not weird or anything, I'm exactly the same. If me and hubby go out without the kids, to have a bit of time together we still talk about them all

Probably they're enjoying staying there, aren't they? Don't feel guilty. this is very normal.It will be easier for you next time.