I must be stupid or something

The past few months everything has been pretty cival between me and the ex. She said she wants to get her head straight and doesn't know what she wants at the moment. She has told me on several occasions that she is finished with the other bloke and that she needs to work out what is going on inside her head.

Anyway it appears she has been playing me for a fool and a mug. I've been away working a lot recently, when I spoke to her earlier something bothered me about the way she was with me on the phone. It bothered me that much that I drove past her house on the way home and sure enough if his bike isn't parked up outside her place. So much for it being over. Why do I keep letting myself get sucked in?

I had just started to pull myself back up from the bottom of a very dark place, and now I'm even further down than I was before.

I'm lonely, tired, fed up and hurting. She's the only person I know within a 30 mile radius of where I live, so I don't have anybody else to talk to about anything, or anybody to go and have a drink with. Just don't know what I'm going to do anymore.

dont no wotto say but u really need to find some one who is goin to to give u the respect u deserve not to be trested so badly

gypsey said:
dont no wotto say but u really need to find some one who is goin to to give u the respect u deserve not to be trested so badly

Totally what she said!!!

sorry about the spelling i have to many vodkas

gypsey said:
sorry about the spelling i have to many vodkas

At the moment, I'd settle for somebody to share a bottle with. However, I can't afford to turn to the bottle so what little I have in the house is staying out of sight. I have to be in top form in a week to get this cycle ride over and done with. Have another one for me!

you will find some one sending hugs yr way

Oh well, maybe not all the alochol in my house was safe. Went in the fridge looking for food and found a bottle of cider!!! So dinner tonight is a cereal bar, a yoghurt and a bottle of bulmers!

I'm sorry everything is so cr@p atm - it seems with me that everytime I get on my feet again my ex knocks me flying so I kinda know what you're going through.
He went through a stage of telling me it was over and he thought he wanted back again, but his head was all over the place - then about 2 weeks later she whistled and they were back together - we never stood a chance and he blamed me all over agin

so sorry to hear you are going through this (and cider isnt the answer )

It is easy for me to say don't let her get to you but in reality that is so much harder especially when kids are involved.

Always here if you want a chat

[quote="Alex"]so sorry to hear you are going through this (and cider isnt the answer )[quote]

I know it isn't that's why half of it went down the sink!! Decided to go and shoot things on the XBox instead. Maybe I ought to find a hack for some of my games and stick her head on the bad guys, so that I can shoot her a theraputic and safe manner!!! LOL!!
But then if we are to believe what they say about computer games my next action would be to buy a gun and blow her head off! I don't think so!

orc30 said:

Maybe I ought to find a hack for some of my games and stick her head on the bad guys, so that I can shoot her a theraputic and safe manner!!! LOL!!

I remember doing that (and at the time makes you feel so much better but then afterwards the feelings all come back again)

forgot to say you are not stupid you are just human and have feelings.

Sorry to hear you've been messed about

I think she sounds like a very selfish person, either that or reckons she can have her cake and eat it

thats bad sorry to hear she has messed around,just remember not to take her back next time,maybe you should try and get out and about more I know how hard it is but if your looking to meet more people then maybe joining some sort of group or class would help to meet people,

I haven't taken her back. I'd love to get out and join a group but I don't know of anything around here that I'd want to do, and I with my job I can't even guarantee to be around to go.

I know, I know, they're just excuses. I need to sort a few other things out and once I have a bit less on my plate then I can look at doing something like that.

what about the local gym or something or college

I go to the gym locally, but to be honest whilst I'm in there trying to get through numerous different bits of exercise the last thing on mine, or most other peoples, minds is talking/socialising.

Most of the trainers are pretty friendly especially knowing that I am cycling from Lands End to John O'Groats they are always asking how the training is going. I actually spent about 20 minutes chatting with one of them as I finished the other day. First time I've probably spoken to somebody I don't really know for any length of time recently without them getting bored. Even more surprising is the fact that it was a woman. Silly little things make a difference as that gave me a feel good feeling for the rest of the day.

Anything that requires me to be somewhere at a set time every week is out due to work. As an example I spent three days in Italy this week and the week before three days in Spain working. I normally travel all around the UK and have notched up 10,000 miles in the car in the last 15 weeks. Sometimes I can be sat at home working and do a simple 9-5, but more commonly it'll be early starts and late finishes, and nearly always with little notice. All this makes it difficult to plan anything. Having the kids every other weekend means I can't really plan to do anything then either. The only time I could probably guarantee to be free is Sunday night, and then like tonight I'll probably be catching up on some work.

well it sounds to me like you have a really busy life compared to mine lol,I have no time for hobbies as have the kids all day everyday lol,but think you need to give the whole relationship thing a break,you need time to recover and build your social network the worst thing to do is to go rushing into another relationship that also wont work,anyway I always think its best to be friends with someone before getting involved,you sound like a pretty cool guy and am sure in time you will meet someone who treats you with respect and love its just a shame we have to encounter heartbreak before we meet the right one!

My thoughts exactly. At the moment I just want some friends (one would do) to go and have a beer with now and again. Everything else can wait, I just need to live again.

have you tried finding any lost friends etc on facebook,I have meet up with lots of girls I used to work with and have had a few nights out with them,I just called it a catch up not that I am sad and lonely and billy no mates lol