Oh dear, sending you a big hug
Both James and Gemma were born by caesarean and I didn't go into full labour with either of them, just the first stage and I didn't feel anything with James- MW told me from the reading on monitor! With Gem, I had very mild tightening across my back the night before but that went away by morning so I'm assuming she would have been an easy-ish labour too.
Have you thought about what, if any, pain relief you might prefer?