i've been quite poorly this week, normally mark is perfect and look after me and makes me rest loads if i'm poorly but this week he has done nothing to help me apart from wash up once and cook once. i really feel like i'm losing him at the mo and very lonely. i'm begining to notice things changing, only little things but they are there, like he used to always make sure we has bread and milk so i didnt have to go to the shops if i didnt want to (not that i mind getting it), he doesnt any more. he used to make time for me whatever was going on but this week especially he has not spent any time with me at all. monday, he got home and feel asleep on the sofa, tuesday he out till 9-10 oclock, wednesday we had ppl round, thursday he was interviewing at home, friday he was in the office till 6, got home, got changed and went to the pub to watch rugby, he went with callum to get curry for tea at 10.30pm, by then it was to late for me to eat coz i get bad heartburn if i eat late, so had nothing and today he has been out since 8 this morning and just phoned to say he is going to watch the local team play rugby till about 6. so, so far i aint seen him hardly at all. tomorrow he is in the office for as long as setting up 8 pc's takes so i want see him tomorrow. next week he is away thurs, fri, sat and sun, so thats next week out to. maybe i'm just feeling low and thats why its getting to me more then it usually would, i dont know, i just feel like he wants to be away from me all the time. we havent argued so theres not even a reason. i feel really low and lonely today
