Thank you for being so welcoming! This looks like a high energy site which is what I need right now! Today was my first day back at work since our loss. Maybe it's hormones. Maybe it's emotion from what happened. But, today I hated my job and almost walked out and all I want to do right now is rebel against the world. Do you ever feel like you're screaming but no one hears you or that no one will understand because you're not "supposed" to be screaming? I'm always the composed and together one. I feel like I just can't take the fighting to stay on top or keep up anymore. I just want to relax.

I think a good drunk sounds good right now, which shouldn't take much because I'm not a drinker. Ahhh! I know this will get better but right now "better" seems so far away. Thanks for listening. [/i]