I'm Empty inside
So here i am again.. writing to you all about my problems concieving! Well its very difficult as some of you may know and i am finding this the hardest thing in life ever! The more anxious i am to become a mum the more it seems likes its never going to happen and now i have got to the point where i have given up hope. Everyday i struggle to get out of bed i cant handle seeing another baby or pregnant women incase i break down in tears, i feel like lifes not worth living anymore. Everytime i get a little bit of hope something comes crashing down and leaves me feeling even worse than before and i dont know how to deal with it anymore i just feel so empty. I keep thinkin why has this happened to me? What did i do that was so wrong that god is punishing me for and i keep trying to find answers, ways to work aroung it, take my mind off things but i never can. I cant even face goign to work anymore as i work with baby clothes and essentials. What do i do? I need someone to tell me where i go from here what do i do next.. but no one has the answer to give me, no one knows. I have lost all of my faith in god beacause if he was there he would see how i am feeling and help me surely? I would be such a brillant mum why cant it just be my time? Will this angony go on forever?
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